I swear I won’t be calling you, I leave you alone. A couple of weeks have passed, now I’ m picking the phone and hanging on to the dial tone because you never pick up and when you finally do, you say you will call me right back, but you never do. So I’ m right back to square one again trying to get over you again. Hating myself now for putting myself out.
I know I must let you go because if I keep holding on, I might never know what life has got in store maybe something more…
Listening to the music of love tells stories about pain and sorrow of unfulfilled dreams. A word with four letters LOVE is filled with twists and turns. Growing up, I always believed love does not have to hurt but my love story is the opposite of what I presumed.
Living a dream full of hope, happiness and smiles was all a charade. It was all lies and deceit. I thought love doesn’t ask why and speaks from the heart,”ooohhhh no! It was all a blurry imagination.
It’s been several months since I last called, texted or heard from my ex. It’s been 9 months since I walked out of a relationship full of lies .It was the weirdest experience ever, without a doubt, the most painful one. I seriously find myself depressed…….and this is coming from a person who is usually a happy person.
I just don’t understand what has happened to me? Was it that I was too attached? Was it that I wasn’t good enough? Was it that I trusted too much? Yes! We were distant but the communication was strong, the love was there! Why all these show off.
I had love, I felt it in my heart and soul, I can‘t describe how it feels to let him go. Yes! I made the bold step to go because the lies were unbearable and pains felt like a sharp knife piercing through my heart. I thought I got better but sometimes I just break down and cry. I instantly fell sick and it just hurt so bad! At times I get angry at myself but console myself with the fact that I will find someone else someday or time will heal the wounds.
There’s a saying that time heals all wounds and is an ongoing process for me. My past relationship has been time wasted on one hand but a learning process on the other. Holistically, I should have never fallen so hard for him because upon recall of the lies it hurts, this kind of love has to only exist with the right person who will never leave you nor play with your feelings.
I miss you as much though just as I said, that’s the whole truth.